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Her Punishment

PART THREE OF THE VICKY & MORDECAI SERIES

It’s only been a few days since Vicky Morrison became billionaire Mordecai Falconi’s companion, and already she seems to have found her rhythm. She’s dressed and ready to take on the day, only to realize that Mordecai is no where to be found upon entering his office building. In fact, he isn’t his usual self at all. 

When Vicky realizes she’s done something worthy punishment, she doesn’t resist. She lets him take what he wants and endures it without protest. The girl at the desk, Jessica, gives Vicky her sympathy. Will Vicky make friends at her new “job,” or will Mordecai take them away from her, too? 

WARNING: Intended for an 18+ audience. Depictions of explicit sexual activity within.

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Ah, time to think of another title…

So this morning I decided I was going to work on the next piece of the Say What You Want series. This will definitely be the last piece. And I’m not entirely sure how it ends — though I suspect the characters will inform me soon, since I’m roughly 2.5k into this chunk already. I struggled a bit getting started, though.

I’ve been struggling again, in terms of writing, anyway. Once I get enough inertia, I’m good, but over the weekend it was a struggle to hit 750 words on Saturday and on Sunday I scraped together 300, with three separate 100 word drabbles. Life is hectic. I was out with the local high school marching band all day Saturday; the words I wrote were all written while I was on the bus. And they weren’t very good words, either. Oh well.

I still haven’t quiiite figured out things for Gray Morning, which I think is going to have a title change to Seize the Day. I don’t see it being a trilogy anymore — Ryin’s story and dropping aspects of the world that pertained mostly to him (Natural Borns, and the genetic engineering, etc) seemed to cut the overall story quite short. Which is fine — I don’t mind it. I prefer stand-alone novels, anyway.

I’m just undecided whether I want it to BE a stand alone novel, or if it should have a sequel — and if I did a sequel, what the sequel would actually BE about. But, I’m filling the pieces together. And I really, really want this to be my NaNo project. And then after I finish this book, I’ll move on to finishing Stellar. Once Stellar is finished, I’ll go back and edit Seize the Day. Or well, maybe not editing it, but reading through it, picking out which pieces need to be changed and making revision notes. It’ll be a bit tedious, but I want to go the traditional publishing route with these novels. Once I’m done with making notes for Seize the Day, I’ll do the same thing for Stellar. 

In the meantime, I’m also going to have to balance those projects and my erotica, not to mention the short stories I’ll also be attempting to get published. All while likely managing a part-time job on top of it all. It’s going to be work. It’s going to be tough. But I know I can do it, and I know that I’ll find a way to push through all of the obstacles that are in front of me. Writing is my passion. It’s what I really, truly want to do with my life, and I will make it work. 

I want my writing income to become my primary source of income. Of course, learning to balance the writing job and the part-time real world job and the childrearing job is going to be exceptionally difficult. But, I will find a system that works for me. The goal is 50k words a month from here on out. More is great! But that’s what I want out of me, minimum. In 75 minutes, I can write 2000-2500 words — that’s what I did today. So I need to set that aside every day. Or twice that, every other day. 

But enough rambling, here’s a piece of what I wrote this morning:

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Um…

Sometimes, I just have to accept that when it comes to writing a story for the first time, I have no idea what’s going to happen in it, at all.

Take Vicky & Mordecai, for example. I started it as almost a “FUCK YOU!” to the billionaire erotica genre that exploded thanks to Fifty Shades of Gray. Same basic premise (billionaire dude who’s into BDSM picks up main character chick). Except my dude? Apparently actually abusive. I know that BDSM relationships themselves aren’t, this man just uses it as an excuse to be abusive, but not physically so.

Naturally, when this came to light, I decided that my protagonist was going to eventually leave this man, instead of staying in her relationship with him in an effort to “fix” him. Because I hate that, so much. So this part, I was supposed to writer growing doubts, maybe have a hot sex scene or two, but really? She was supposed to start really making the decision to leave.

This…kind of happens. Enter a third character:

Jennifer Watson. 

Jennifer Watson is one of Mordecai’s secretaries that he hired for legit reasons. She also becomes the one who outright points out how Mordecai’s treatment of his “companions” is sort of fucked up. She’s also a lesbian.

…You can see where I’m going with this, right? Of course, Vicky’s fascinated with her almost right away. While some of my story isn’t necessarily believable, I’ve basically set it up that Mordecai’s whole home office is aware of his proclivities. But Vicky’s also not really allowed to socialize with her coworkers.

But I just — I never expected for another challenger to appear and I especially didn’t expect it to be a woman. Not that I’m against writing femslash, I just — well, okay, I’ve never really written femslash before? And look, female body parts are annoying to describe in smut which is why I like, kinda avoided writing any f/f scenes. But uhhh, it’s where the story wants to go, so I will take it there.

Also, this part had so much sex in it it kinda surprised me/exhausted me on writing smut for a little while. But I’ll likely edit it over the weekend and get it up and ready for sale on Amazon by Tuesday at the latest.

One of these days my own writing won’t surprise me. One of these damn days…

(Oh, and have the part where Vicky met Jennifer…)

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An Unusual Interrogation

Look, I’ll admit I’m pretty shameless. The Fuck or Die trope is one of my favorites, especially when it involves throwing two people who don’t really like one another into the same room and ordering them to have sex. It’s a weakness of mine. And therefore I wrote something that involves this weakness. 

Either way, said piece involving said trope is now up for sale on Amazon! Why not go and take a gander. 😉 I’d write a more involved blog post tonight, but I just got back from band practice, took out the trash, had a few laughs with the ex, figured out when I needed to be up tomorrow morning, and now I am beat. 

Life is pretty good right now, though. Why not spare a couple of dollars and make my day even brighter? 🙂

Busy Little Bee

You know those people who, when their lives start falling apart, they bury themselves in work and just kinda push themselves to figure shit out one day at a time. It’s also a great method to deny that shit’s falling apart. After all, if it’s not actively in your face and you’re doing work and you’re doing it well, how could anyone say you’re falling apart? 

I am that person.

And in the second half of May, my life unraveled at the seams. By July, all I had were a few threads painfully clinging to one another, unable to let go until the last, heartfelt tug was given and the knot broke apart. 

To say I was utterly broken would be an understatement. When writing doesn’t happen, when it’s painful to eek out 500 words in a day, I’m in bad shape. Writing is my work. Parenting is also my work. Cleaning the house, making sure everyone is taken care of — these are the things I do, the things I throw myself into when things are tough. When I can’t even do that….

A couple of months ago, I wrote a blog post about how my therapist says I’m not allowed to stop writing. That I need it. He’s not wrong. Word counts are how you know how well I’m functioning. Finished works are an indicator strip; the higher the number, the better I’m doing. 

Today, I submitted another erotica short for publication on Amazon — it was one I wrote a few months ago, that I edited to stand alone. I also wrote a 1400 word chapter for a fanfic, because I wanna play and not work. And I wrote 750 words for a novella I intend to publish when the time comes. It’s actually an expanded version of another short I published on Amazon; when this one is finished, I’m taking the short down. Tomorrow, I hope to submit a work or two to a magazine. Start the process of trying to get my non-erotica related name out there. 

After all, it’ll help when the time comes for my novels — the ones that aren’t purely erotic romance — to get published. I’d like to go the traditional route with them, if I can. We’ll see what happens. 

Until then, enjoy some fic, where Savin is basically me:

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